Empty hands

Today when I dropped a tear, I asked it what are you falling for.. I opened the book of my life to see what i have achieved so far in this turmoil of world. To my dismay, I own nothing. The morals I possess are my parent's blessings, the academic success is a part of my hardwork, the smiles are due to my own efforts but wait...what about the fate. I own none. Fate has always given me what was bestowed on me by others. I did not get the part of my fate. O Lord..see I am empty handed spreading them in front of You..waiting for my part. I used to think that I have everything that everyone should be having to get the best of all. My friends envied me for having the guts, glamour, success, intelligence and what not. But I forgot that life is not about all this. This missing happiness is what that has beaten me to the mud. I envy them fot having all and I pity myself for having none. I envy their life with their love and pity my part. I have nothing to not cry for. That was my part. Whatever You bless me with now.. is incomplete without the share holder that is being taken away by You. I never deserved the right but i want to live rightly. And You know how.. by getting the part You have taken away. I always heard that fate is what we pray for. But spreading hands and bowing down never gave me what I desired. You gave me every other thing to be happy about but You took away the smiling happiness of mine. Perhaps I deserve this wrath of Yours. But my Lord.. love is what I want. You listen to me when everyone else thinks I am chattering rubbish. You made me sleep when every other person tried disrupting my dreams. You made my thoughts prettier when everyone else thought of them as fake. But You see, I am not happy. You forgot to give them to me. You know I cry each night to get what I want knowing that it gives me pain but I am ready to take it. You have seen the rolling water droplets but might be the reason itself does not wish to be by my side. Tears are meaningless now. I do not wish anything now but to be with You infront of You like a shooting star.