Road

When I was a child, I was always stunned by the idea of "New", be it people, places, things or ideas.
So I introduced myself with this feeling.
As I grew old, I realized that it wasn't a rare thing to experience, I came across something new daily.
I came across new life daily, new feelings, new journey, new places and some people.
Today, on the road to this new journey, I realized that life give you two chances, to dump suppressing voices and to embrace new accepting faces.
Having your pocket full of money to travel, your hunger fulfilled and your home fresh, is a blessing.
Amid this blessing, what is it that takes your off the track? It's the entities around you, miserably feeble to stand on their own chaotic characters; tumbling your steps.
This is the journey of something new over something else but new.
But you know what is rare? The old, be it old values, old friends, old places and the old you.
Embracing this new has never been this difficult...!

PLACE

There is a deep pain, a feeling of moments being snatched away from an hourglass, an agony of underlying abscond that is about to happen..
A human nature is so absurd that it never admires what's in hands, it always ardors what's about to leave..
This place, where I am sitting and rewinding all the memories of past few months is about to get UNKNOWN. And all I can do is just miss what's gone instead of catching the new days...
because 
this is my nature.. human nature.!

Darkness

Have you ever seen darkness? Yes.. We all had.. But have you ever felt it too?
Darkness intrudes deeper in soul and in some way or the other glows up the soul. I have always loved darkness. Deep down, it calms me, soothes my broken pieces and embrace me tightly in its cover..A cover of shamelessness, a sheath veiling my sins.. 

I have been rescued always by this dark night.. From the people, from obsessions and drowning dreams.

This time is so peaceful, it drains off all the exhaustion of guilt, optimism and care. Amid countless stars, I can still see lunar sadness, the ache of loneliness and faking it all.. I wish darkness to hold me up as if it were mine always..

DREAM A DREAM

I don't know about anyone else's dreams but my dreams have always been very fragile. So naked that I fear disclosing even the slight nook of them. Whatever I saw was always a mere illusion of my desires, fears, boldness or might be my gullible vision. But, over the past span of time, I have been dreaming of nothingness. "NOTHINGNESS" to me is  very unique and  very kind of a new word, though it holds depth of oceans. I have been thinking lately to discover the roots of this ocean but to my dismay, I have brutally come to naught. 

Now what I believe that this "nothingness" isn't a problem but an answer by nature to never ending dilemmas, to ongoing fiasco, to my trials and to my broken faith. I owe nothingness to people all around, to my own self and to my dreams. I wish someone to find me in this nothingness and make me dream a dream one day. But then, I accepted dreams are wishes and wishes never get fulfilled. 

In This Season

Nature always has an impact on its beings, in eternal ways. Nature allows seasons to change, so does we adopt it. For our own mastery, We try to pave paths which are otherwise not acceptable to our own selves. This duplex and perplexed nature of humans have made this planet a worst state to breathe in. Everything is odd till it befalls on us. Yes, we, the creatures have an amazing law of denying the truth falling on us and molding all the prospects in our favour. 

Yes, we the candle bearer of this land are filthy on our own parts. What we never seek from nature is the ultimate reason of permutation. Seasons may change but spring eventually comes to the same tree which faced fall. Why this atrocious cycle of rise and fall then? "Reverence and Perseverance" is the best bashing retort. 

BLESSED

Things had always been my way since the time I got hold of the journey of life. There was magic, tantrums, carelessness and ease around every nook, but I never had been able to make these things real. They were always virtual. Until the time, I met YOU.
Something had awakened inside like a rekindling teeny flame striving to make a path towards the woods.  Passion slumbered far too long. The feeling, as they call falling in love, is to a point of passion that unhinges my soul. Amazement never stopped, every other moment brought magic, this time the real one.
That urge of being around blooms like a rose that always make me enchanted by its fragrance. And then i heard whispers, whispers of them, warning me of the pains, recklessness and never ending reconciliation. But then i found a subtle fact for that sealed those whispers. Yes, I say: "unless it is mad, passionate, ruthless, extraordinary love. It is a garbage, a waste full of moths. There are far many mediocre things in life. And my Lord, love should not be one of them".

In the passion, I inspire; in the pleasure, I redeem and in the happiness, I surrender. Lord has many ways of showing you His love, and He showed me You. The never ending quest for seeking thy smiles, love to every single bit and dreams to infinite horizons will keep their pace.
Every time, I hear my name from your heart, I blush young. Time's tick tock has never been able to justify the freedom of well-being, while in love. I envy You, for someone breathes for you, smiles for you and prays for you. Yes, I envy myself for falling so deep in to you but yes, We both envy each other. May life never stop to amaze us in each other's love. Wish you a long peaceful joys ahead on this path with me. I promise to be the seeker of you thorugh all long, no matter how many thorns bleed the steps. As the saying goes along, " I told him that I would love him with everything I had in me until the very end of everything, and I meant it."

FORLORN

Abandoned souls
Distressed lives, 
dwelling forlorn amongst the dust..

Amidst the mud, 
shallowest we are..
Amongst the worst,
deeper we fall..

Mourning world and dead deeds,
All we live are the ugliest screams..

Gardens you reap,
sow thee thorns.
Deadliest we are,
Beauty we seek.
Love is what we want,
Grief is all we bestow...

ACCEPTANCE

So many times in a life, we think that we are the unbeatable, divine and significant. What I ought to believe is that there is nothing so divine than acceptance. The acceptance of the deeds, of emotions and desires. the acceptance that you are nothing much of an interest to yourself but to the one you love. The acceptance of the negation that we can never be wrong.

The ignorance and the misery you sow in one, will come your way one day. It works like a loose loop. One day you will come to an end that whatever you thought of your utmost well-being was nothing but what you wanted to feel from others about you. I am sure about it if you were not loved by the one around you like idiots, you wont had come up like a rising king or queen. You are what one made you. You are nothing of a victory in yourself, it's that one who made you reach the meridians.

I wish to be taken afar to the horizons of self being and immortality of happiness. I simply want that one to grasp my existence in the love so pure that I can feel like hurricane conquering all that comes its way.
Wishes never come true and that's the hardest thing to accept.

REMINDER

Upon my grave when I shall die,
No lamp shall burn, nor Jasmine lie.
No candle with unsteady flame,
Serve as a reminder of my fame.
No bulbul chanting overhead,
Shall tell the world, that I am dead.

"Translation of a passage written by queen Noor Jehan (Mehrun Nisa)".

LIFE

I have always done things for my own existene realizing that it may cause an infinite amount of pain to the nearest person.
I have realized that things can never be altered according to your choices. You have to kill the happiness for other's obedience.
It's time to let them win and give them their world. It's now the moment of giving them what they wanted and struggled for...
It's the time of their triumph...

TOGETHER

Paving the paths
For the unlived dreams.

Urging for You
With the deadly truth

A separation so true
Of the shadows of two

The oozing feeling
And the life so dirty

I am waiting for the beauty,
The glory of the victory

Of separation of us
And defeat of the world.

BEAUTY

A few things in a time are so mesmerizing that they take the best out of you. The rain drops that sweep down the glass window and the tickling sound they produce on striking the surface are the happiest of all..
Though I am not a big fan of the downpour but I sometime can not deny the romance that rain brings into life.
I randomly realized this stated fact today when I spent the beauty of the rainfall with my precious one. I wonder how the presence of just one person beside you can bring everything to life.
I adore this feeling of being in love.

VICTORY

Shadows and mists

Surrendering the glow,

Marbles that shine in the rays

So defined.

Cracks and betrayal

Hideous do they lie,

Passion igniting in beats

So torturing fake.

Life and merry

Bury in the eyes,

Death and demise

Living so high.

WINDOW

The window and the lantern, they just remind me of the yonder off remembering. The ship there, that sails down the sea, the lover that is engrossed to love, the sea so calm to hear the cries and the eyes so dark to attempt the undecided. It sometimes brings fervor, zeal and a zest of senseless emotions that keep flowing down the lifeless entity out of you. 

Undeniable the fears, soulful the love, pitiful a heart and unconditional a chance and tyrannical you. Everything is so mesmerizing up here sitting by the shades and urging for you. The swift movement of the pen and the crisp feel of the paper lighten up the wind blowing so harsh.

Empty hands

Today when I dropped a tear, I asked it what are you falling for.. I opened the book of my life to see what i have achieved so far in this turmoil of world. To my dismay, I own nothing. The morals I possess are my parent's blessings, the academic success is a part of my hardwork, the smiles are due to my own efforts but wait...what about the fate. I own none. Fate has always given me what was bestowed on me by others. I did not get the part of my fate. O Lord..see I am empty handed spreading them in front of You..waiting for my part. I used to think that I have everything that everyone should be having to get the best of all. My friends envied me for having the guts, glamour, success, intelligence and what not. But I forgot that life is not about all this. This missing happiness is what that has beaten me to the mud. I envy them fot having all and I pity myself for having none. I envy their life with their love and pity my part. I have nothing to not cry for. That was my part. Whatever You bless me with now.. is incomplete without the share holder that is being taken away by You. I never deserved the right but i want to live rightly. And You know how.. by getting the part You have taken away. I always heard that fate is what we pray for. But spreading hands and bowing down never gave me what I desired. You gave me every other thing to be happy about but You took away the smiling happiness of mine. Perhaps I deserve this wrath of Yours. But my Lord.. love is what I want. You listen to me when everyone else thinks I am chattering rubbish. You made me sleep when every other person tried disrupting my dreams. You made my thoughts prettier when everyone else thought of them as fake. But You see, I am not happy. You forgot to give them to me. You know I cry each night to get what I want knowing that it gives me pain but I am ready to take it. You have seen the rolling water droplets but might be the reason itself does not wish to be by my side. Tears are meaningless now. I do not wish anything now but to be with You infront of You like a shooting star.

WHISPER

Taken afar by the wishes and hopes,

The whispers roar and crawl in my ears.

Sometimes I am up all night,

Struggling to hide

The joys and laughter of the unknown desires.

The secret smiles,

Sparkling in the sight.

On oblivious day,

Let’s bring the time.

Walking on the path, which you and I paved…

I am thinking to smile with tears in my eyes.

EXISTENCE

Life is a “Walk to remember”.

The days, the nights, the sorrows, the joys, the blessing and the accidents, a simple measurement of the journey’s rise and fall like a roller coaster ride.

For me, life had always been for granted version of God’s blessing. I never feared death, I never searched for my soul or goals, I never knew its meaning, in simple words.

Lacking the interest, enthusiasm, passion and that ignition, I never knew the true essence of the living. It was just like a monotonous here comes another day like life.

One day, a day that was destined to appear in my life, just turned my life upside down. The sunny mornings, doomed nights, squeaky dark and the hollow space, everything just became more worthy, more of a blessing. Now I fear death.

Now I really get that strange weirdo feeling when the night comes to an end, it’s like I’ll never know if I’ll be the same again or you’ll be the same again. I don’t know what makes the world so lovable now; I just want to last…forever.

I admit the fact, this world is a lot better now, not because of the lessons I learned in my life or the journey I chose. It’s just because of your presence, I owe this to you.

If I could ever had a chance to show the place of yours in my life, I would have just simply handed over my heart to you to see how much it’s filled with the everlasting joy and pleasure, just because of your existence in it. I just love being in love with you, you falling for me and I holding upon you.

From a hello to a besto friendship to this beautiful bumpy relationship, I am in love with each moment that defines my life, your life and ours. I hope it reaches you in love and mesmerizes in you in love… for love is all it takes.

JUST BREATHE

There is nothing in the world, known as "fulfilling of dreams". Its actually a struggle, a struggle you do to get something you want in your life. and if you don't put your feet on the path to struggle, there is nothing in this world named DREAM for you..

Bother about the things that make you happy, one day you won't have such reasons to be joyous of. Breathe it, for one day You won't have the reason to breathe. And of course, show care, otherwise you'll be neglected forever...!

Dreams come true. Without that possibility, nature would not incite us to have them.

CAPTURE IT.!

Sometimes all you know is that life didn't give you a fair chance but the part of this ground vision is sometimes doomed upon you.. you know how and when?

When you begin realizing that life gave you more than a long lasting chance to capture the happiness, to not let go off the dreams.. but we always thought it's a fate and we are the slaves of time..!

You are the slave of time, but the time's quality is defined by you. You were never so eager to get what you wanted, or may be you didn't want it in the first place.. why did you let it go, why you captured it then when it wasn't yours..you always lied to yourself and your dreams that I am bound, I am bound to the world's limits. The limits that i have imposed on myself for no reasons. You crossed all the limits prescribed for you by the Lord, but you never tried surpassing the limits of the worlds that were imposed on you.

You played and played really well. But you lost and you lost all. Now when you will see yourself alone one day, never try to mimic off the crying souls. You had chosen the path yourself, you were not destined to be yourself.. You are the slave of society, a slave of immoralities and a ruthless creature. All you deserved was the dejection and the malaise of the dreams. You survived because someone else had to die at your place. You are there because you dragged someone out of the dreams.

How and when you became selfish, i didn't know...But you deserve to be alone among the crowd.

TRUTH

Who are you and I,
travelers of the road to existence..
Or,
A shadow so divine,
of the ruthless time..