Empty hands

Today when I dropped a tear, I asked it what are you falling for.. I opened the book of my life to see what i have achieved so far in this turmoil of world. To my dismay, I own nothing. The morals I possess are my parent's blessings, the academic success is a part of my hardwork, the smiles are due to my own efforts but wait...what about the fate. I own none. Fate has always given me what was bestowed on me by others. I did not get the part of my fate. O Lord..see I am empty handed spreading them in front of You..waiting for my part. I used to think that I have everything that everyone should be having to get the best of all. My friends envied me for having the guts, glamour, success, intelligence and what not. But I forgot that life is not about all this. This missing happiness is what that has beaten me to the mud. I envy them fot having all and I pity myself for having none. I envy their life with their love and pity my part. I have nothing to not cry for. That was my part. Whatever You bless me with now.. is incomplete without the share holder that is being taken away by You. I never deserved the right but i want to live rightly. And You know how.. by getting the part You have taken away. I always heard that fate is what we pray for. But spreading hands and bowing down never gave me what I desired. You gave me every other thing to be happy about but You took away the smiling happiness of mine. Perhaps I deserve this wrath of Yours. But my Lord.. love is what I want. You listen to me when everyone else thinks I am chattering rubbish. You made me sleep when every other person tried disrupting my dreams. You made my thoughts prettier when everyone else thought of them as fake. But You see, I am not happy. You forgot to give them to me. You know I cry each night to get what I want knowing that it gives me pain but I am ready to take it. You have seen the rolling water droplets but might be the reason itself does not wish to be by my side. Tears are meaningless now. I do not wish anything now but to be with You infront of You like a shooting star.

WHISPER

Taken afar by the wishes and hopes,

The whispers roar and crawl in my ears.

Sometimes I am up all night,

Struggling to hide

The joys and laughter of the unknown desires.

The secret smiles,

Sparkling in the sight.

On oblivious day,

Let’s bring the time.

Walking on the path, which you and I paved…

I am thinking to smile with tears in my eyes.

EXISTENCE

Life is a “Walk to remember”.

The days, the nights, the sorrows, the joys, the blessing and the accidents, a simple measurement of the journey’s rise and fall like a roller coaster ride.

For me, life had always been for granted version of God’s blessing. I never feared death, I never searched for my soul or goals, I never knew its meaning, in simple words.

Lacking the interest, enthusiasm, passion and that ignition, I never knew the true essence of the living. It was just like a monotonous here comes another day like life.

One day, a day that was destined to appear in my life, just turned my life upside down. The sunny mornings, doomed nights, squeaky dark and the hollow space, everything just became more worthy, more of a blessing. Now I fear death.

Now I really get that strange weirdo feeling when the night comes to an end, it’s like I’ll never know if I’ll be the same again or you’ll be the same again. I don’t know what makes the world so lovable now; I just want to last…forever.

I admit the fact, this world is a lot better now, not because of the lessons I learned in my life or the journey I chose. It’s just because of your presence, I owe this to you.

If I could ever had a chance to show the place of yours in my life, I would have just simply handed over my heart to you to see how much it’s filled with the everlasting joy and pleasure, just because of your existence in it. I just love being in love with you, you falling for me and I holding upon you.

From a hello to a besto friendship to this beautiful bumpy relationship, I am in love with each moment that defines my life, your life and ours. I hope it reaches you in love and mesmerizes in you in love… for love is all it takes.